"But down the road the sun is shining
In every cloud there's a silver lining
Just keep holding on
And every heartache makes you stronger
But it won't be much longer
You'll find love, you'll find peace
And the you you're meant to be
I know right now that's not the way you feel
But one day you will."
Before I embarked on this adventure, I was at a very strange point in my life. Having graduated from college and found no job, it was difficult for me to be on the island doing the same old stuff I did every summer. Don't get me wrong - I had a ball this summer! Partying on the beach with Heidi and Valerie was a highlight! However, something was missing and I constantly felt claustrophobic in my hometown, a place that I LOVE, and I struggled to relax. Leaving the island to travel is the best decision I have ever made. As I look back on this trip, I see how my attitude towards life has changed for the better and I am SO thankful that I had this opportunity.
Now I realize that life truly is full of ENDLESS possibilities that stretch out in front of me infinitely. For the first time, I honestly believe that I can do anything, see everything, and be anyone I want to be. Just as Lady Antebellum sings in their song, I feel as though I have finally found the "me I'm meant to be" - or at least I am on the right path! I have reached the "someday" that they are singing about. I am more excited, enthusiastic, confident, curious, stable, spontaneous, and free. I can't wait to see what life has in store for me.
When I say I am excited, I want you all to understand that I am literally excited for every aspect of life that might come my way. The unknown is no longer scary. I can't wait to meet new people and I'm also looking forward to spending more time with friends and family I already know and love. I want to continue to travel; at the same time, I am also anticipating settling down, getting a job and having some structure. I have a tentative job prospect in the next few months but if that doesn't work out, I will be okay. Maybe I am meant to do something else.
Before Europe, I was so set in planning everything. I'm not going to lie; I still like to plan :) However, it doesn't bother me as much if the plan doesn't work out. If my "life plan" doesn't work out the way I have imagined it, IT DOESN'T MATTER. I am only excited and curious to see what does happen - it might be better than what I originally wanted! The only thing that truly matters is that I surround myself with people that I LOVE and care about and who also feel the same way about me. I no longer want to waste my time with petty arguments or being stubborn just to make a point. I am more honest and straight-forward; games are time-consuming and wasteful.
Throughout this trip, my travels have been labeled as an "adventure." I feel as though that is incorrect. LIVING is an excursion in itself and backpacking Europe is only a small portion of the bigger picture. The only sure thing in this world is that the future will continue to be a mystery; life will always be an adventure filled with SERENDIPITY.
I am flying home today and I absolutely can't wait to see each and every one of you!
All my love,
Meg
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